it's been I while since I made a post....

Ok, so not to be whinny, but I am gonna be. I just wanna say, being home sick is laaaaaaaame! I feel like I am going to fall behind in C&I, the biggest monster class ever, and my soar throat is a real pain right now. Overall, I think the stress and work load of the end of the semester got to my immune system...

I am actually aloud to just complain on this thing???
Here's a picture I found on the internet of "soar throat"
Ha ha...it's funny.

So anyway, with no voice and a soar through, I figured since I can't talk, I might as well do something constructive and be an active "blogger" today. Hummmm, maybe for once
I'll actually post something with meaning....almost.

Can I just say something really honest on this blog????
Ok.
I'm frustraited.
Yeah, yeah poor little grad student right?
I know!!! Not everyone even gets to go to grad school, so who am I to complain?
Believe me, I know. I think about this constantly. I am really thankful to be attending grad school and learning so much. I remind myself of this when ever I complain.
But, I'm not really that frustrated with school. I'm frustrated with my self.

Ok this is the honest part,
sorry cyberped,
but I'm frustrated because I just don't have the lust or appreciation
for technology everyone else around me seems to have. I wish I could say I did
because it was brought to my attention that learning to use the
digital technology we have been practicing in our class is
going to be really important for my teaching and
ability to relate to my students. But, I don't feel creative when
I use technology. I feel creative when I make things by hand!
My students will undoubtedly be more familiar with technology than me. So, if I don't get on board and at least learn to love what's digital, how will I create curriculum that is meaningful to students? Is my problem that I am just more interested in making things by hand and inviting students to get in touch with their ability to make things?

Sometimes, for some reason, people say, "oh, it's cool that your so analog". It like a novelty to be an analog!! People can be so attached to their technology that they don't seem to appreciate things or remember the time before, oh say, I-phones.....

So, I'm caught between; "we have all this technology available and we should utilize it", and "I just can't get excited about it but maybe I'll have to...."
So, that's why it sucks being "analog" at times. I just feel like I hardly ever know
how to do ANYTHING interesting with computers or anything technological.
When I do sort of figure things out,
technical stuff always seems tedious and boring to me.

So here's a funny picture of "technology". It's all old and out of date like the way I think...

Well,that was a lot of bitching. And for that, I sincerely apologize to ANYONE who may have actually read this. I also hope I didn't offend anyone who LOVES technology. Or, any robots for that matter. I'm sorry, robots, I do not hate YOU.
I want to end this post on a positive note though:
I will do that by saying this time last year, I had never made a PowerPoint in my life! That's right, I didn't do it in High School because my school was way too low tech for that and some how I got by without doing it in college. So last fall for John's class
I finally had to learn.
I've made a lot more PowerPoints since then, and now I am ok at dealing with the program and I kind of actually enjoy making the presentations! My next step is to learn how to do some of those fancy animated PowerPoint tricks so I can impress my students, a least a little bit. Maybe not impress,but keep up with...

And then after that, world domination!!!! Whahahahaha!
Kidding...

I leave this post with a quote by one of my all time favorite heroes Erykah Badu;

"Analog girl in a digital world..."